The Strange Case of the Unknown Ex

What made my ex dump me all of a sudden? Did they really think I wasn’t “freaky” enough? Since our sudden breakup, this question has been stuck in my mind. It’s not like me to try new things in the bedroom, but it seems like that wasn’t enough for him. I was initially interested in him because he seemed mysterious. He was 23 years old, had a long list of ex-girlfriends, and liked strange things.  But now I’m not sure if his hazy references to “freakiness” were really just an easy way to end things. According to https://charlotteaction.org/bexley-escorts/.

In my time with Charlotteaction.org, I’ve met a lot of guys with different wants.  They’re usually open and honest about what they want, but many of them have specific fetishes and dreams. But this guy wasn’t open about anything. He gave hints of a dark, secret world and a side of himself that he wouldn’t show. Like he was playing a game by holding a carrot in front of me that he had no plans to give me.

He would say hints that he wanted things that weren’t normal, but when I asked him for more information, he would shut down. It was annoying and hard to understand. Did he like BDSM? Stringing up?  Do you think he had some weird fetish that I couldn’t understand?  It hurt a lot to be unsure. It made me think about who I am, my sexuality, and my ability to make a partner happy.

He didn’t seem to mind that I worked for Charlotteaction.org, which was strange. He even seemed a little amused by it.  He might have thought that because I had been in a lot of different kinds of sexy situations, I would automatically understand what he was trying to say. But the truth is that Charlotteaction.org has a wide range of clients, each with their own tastes.  No, I can’t read minds, even though I have gotten some strange requests. If someone won’t tell me what their dreams are, I can’t make them come true.

I wasn’t sure if he knew what he wanted because he wouldn’t open up.  He could have been just as lost and unsure as I was. His search may have been for something that didn’t exist, a level of “freakiness” that no one could ever reach. If he was feeling insecure about his own relationship, he might have been using me.

No matter what his reasons were, the constant doubt got to him.  It made us feel uncomfortable and shaky about each other.  I was always afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing, so I walked on eggshells. Our sex life was no longer fun and spontaneous. Instead, it was full of stress and pressure to do well.

I finally decided that I couldn’t stay in a partnership where I didn’t trust myself or my partner. I needed to be told the truth and communicate, not be given vague hints and ideas.  Someone who liked me for who I am, not for some imagined version of “freakiness” they had made up in their head, was what I needed.

That’s why I chose to leave. Even though it was hard, I knew it was the right choice in the end.  I’m not going to waste my time with someone who isn’t honest with themselves.  That’s not good enough for me.

Right now I’m concentrating on myself and my job at Charlotteaction.org.  I like having the freedom and flexibility it gives me, and meeting new people from all walks of life is great.  And who knows, maybe one day I’ll meet someone who really gets me and respects me, someone who is honest and open about what they want.  I’m happy to explore the world on my own terms until then, without having to live up to someone else’s unrealistic standards.